Oh, StickingToIt_93, I totally get where you are right now. What you’re feeling is absolutely, 100% normal, and I’ve been there too. That pull back to what’s familiar, even if it was unhealthy, can be incredibly strong. It’s like your brain is trying to trick you into remembering only the good parts, ignoring the reasons you left.
Don’t beat yourself up for it. Instead, when those feelings hit, try to consciously remind yourself of those draining, controlling moments. Reach out to a trusted friend, family member, or even just journal about what made you leave. Focus on rediscovering you and building a life filled with healthy connections. It’s a tough journey, but you’re strong for taking the first step. Keep moving forward, one small step at a time.